alexthekitty asked: Themselves. There's help out there. Even if you just need to vent. I'll listen. It's just really not worth it. Can you imagine the person who would find your body? The indiscribable emotions. Your parents; even though they may not act like they care, the moment you were born was a moment that their lives peaked. A feeling that no one could forget. Could you imagine your world, gone? The after effects are just devistating.

i just want to get rid of this pain. its not that i don’t care what my friends and family will think, its just they don’t understand. They never saw through my lies, they expected everything was fine. They made jokes, insults, and little did they know every single word got to me. I am at the lowest point of my life and i have just given up completely in ever being okay again. I feel as if i do not deserve it. I am a nothing. I am ugly, gross, disgusting and i don’t know what you can really do to stop me from doing this because i have been working up the courage to do it for months now, and it has  kept getting worse. I used to think all positive and say i know it will get better, but deep down i know it never will. so what really is the point in living anyway. If i am so miserable and i just want to die. Why wont you people just let me. I want to be happy, that’s all i want. But in this life that isn’t possible. what are you trying to say ? that i resume my life hating every second of it, living depressed and feeling completely alone, hating myself more and more after every little judgement. what do you want from me ? I cant take this shit.